Today has been a wonderful day!  I got to meet with one of my great friends Chelsea for coffee and breakfast this morning and then spend some time outside soakin' up the rays and working on some art.  I don't think that anything can really bring me down today!  I feel I have finally accepted that I have no control on what might happen in the future and am ok with that because it's summer and time to relax.  

Tomorrow afternoon I will be heading to State Track to watch my brother and the others on the Mid-Prairie track team run on the blue track.  It has been fun watching them at random meets that I have been to this season and I'm sure they will do just as well or better at state.

What do I really want?

Coming home from college I thought with a summer job lined up I would work regular hours and have time to see family and hang out with friends...not quite the picture I have.  Since I started working last Monday I have been stuck on the 4-10:30 shift that doesn't allow me to see my family because I sleep in and get home late.  Most of my friends do work regular hour jobs so I haven't seen much of them either.  This is difficult for me because I like to be social, have time for myself, and a regular schedule (planing ahead).  All of this said I have become more driven to finish college with a degree because I would absolutely hate working this job for the rest of my life and living week to week.    

While going to college I have enjoyed different classes like psychology and sociology which is a little different then the science classes that I need to take in order to become a radiological technologist.  There have been many bumps in the road with what major this job title would fall under at UNI and what classes I need to take.  I seem to have gotten all the wrong answers because I was set up to be a pre-med. student and was told I need to take all those classes.  The problem was I was planning on doing radiology classes at Allen college in Waterloo while getting a bachelors at UNI.  UNI wasn't up to date with Allen's information and I got the wrong information which led me to take two classes that I didn't need to take.  I did get the information from Allen college about what I need to do and am on that road now with some more classes I need to take before I can get into Allen.  There are also some other hoops that I need to jump through and road blocks standing in my way which is causing me to wonder if becoming a radiological technologist is really what God wants me to do.  I have thought about becoming a high school guidance counselor but I don't know if that is what I'm supposed to do either.  I just have a lot of unanswered questions about my future and I feel like I'm back at square one when it comes to what to do next.  Do I still take classes to set myself up for radiology, should I just switch to psychology now, I just don't know and I really like to plan things ahead so right now I'm feeling really uneasy about anything in my future.