I have had a good guy friend for about a year and we were starting to become more than friends but there was one tiny problem...we didn't line up on some issues, one being faith and God has really been putting that on my heart when we were together that even though he is a great guy he's not the one for me. So instead of going farther down the road of more than friends I picked up the brick that God threw at me and just said that we wouldn't be right for each other as more than friends. After I said this I felt like the worst person in the world hurting this nice guy but yet I found peace in knowing the devil didn't get me on this one. It is the strangest feeling in the world and I really am confused but I know there will be a better match out there for the both of us and it will just be a matter of time before that person walks into our lives.
My mom has this theory about an "alpha friend" that I don't know all the details to but I understand that the alpha is the more dominant one and that sometimes you just have to switch roles. My roommate Jessica has been the more dominant alpha so far this year and this weekend I took the title from her and became the alpha : ) She had not been home since the middle of August when she spent little time packing for school after being away as a camp counselor, serving on a missions trip, and a family vacation. Somehow her whole ride situation got messed up and I saw a way to give back to her since I have a car and drove her half way home after work on Friday night. Some of our other friends came too and it was a mini road trip that we'll never forget! I'm so glad I got to do this for her and I hope this is a step in breaking down both of our own stuburn walls!
School has been moving fast and it has become apparent to me that I have overloaded my schedule...who did I think I was Superwoman? I just keep telling myself that there are 2 months left and then next semester will be a little easier since I can take less credits. So far this semester I have realized that if I were not to get into Allen for radiology that I really don't want to be a psychology major so I have been thinking about the idea of Communicative Disorders or Communications/Event Coordinating. I still have some research to do about what these careers would offer but I feel that I'm running out of time to decide because I need to start taking some of these classes next semester to graduate at the same time.
Life has apparently just been throwing things at me and I just keep giving it to God.
A phrase that has been with me lately is, "you enter this world with nothing and you will leave with nothing" has really got me thinking that I got the chance to be made by God who already had a plan and instructions for me to live out.
